priority vs option

so... I've been told all my life not to make someone a priority when they make you an option. The choice is between me and a video game and almost 70% of the time the video game is chosen. Now... How much harder is it when the person who makes that choice is the love of my life, my fiancé? It makes me feel so neglected. And every time I try to talk to him about it, he's the one who gets angry. I just don't understand how I can make my point without us having this huge blow out fight. It's just not necessary... I've told him time after time after time that I can handle him playing while I'm working and for a couple of hours while I'm around, but when he plays until WAY after I've fallen asleep and then sleeps until after I go to work, we never spend time together. It's tearing me apart, and I don't know what I can do to show him. I don't want to lose him, but the only thing I can think of to make him come back to the reality of our relationship is to take a step back from fiancé to girlfriend. I don't want to do that, but if that's what gets through to him, what else can I do? I make him a priority... I put gas in his car, I bring him ice cream, I take care of him when he's sick, I pay for us to go on dates, I clean his bathroom and bedroom for him. What more can I do for him to make him appreciate me? Maybe this is all I'm going to get out of our relationship. Just a hole in my heart where he should be. It's going to happen that I'm going to grow to resent him... and feel like he treats me like his unpaid maid. I don't want or need that. I'm going to be his wife... not his cash flow, not his maid.

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Stupid boys

I'm falling for this one guy, but I don't want to fall if he won't catch me. He doesn't know how he feels, really. So... I don't know what to do. My two besties don't like him. One of them is being supportive, though because she really cares about me. The other one is interrogating me about him. I'm getting sick of the way she acts. She's caught up in her own relationship, which I have been supportive of ALL THE WAY. And now she's being a total jerk because I might be getting my happiness. She pits on this facade that she's looking out for me, but she isn't. She's telling me that my feelings for him are based on his feelings for me. I'm seriously ready to punch her in the face. She's just not being supportive. And I think that I'm just ready to cut her out of my life if she's going to act like that. GRR.
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People

Honestly, some people just make me so angry. While I too at times hate men because they've taken me for granted or treated me like I'm not even worth the dirt they walk on, these women need to realize that sometimes, men fall out of love just like we do. Some girls have a lot of growing up to do. I doubt the person I'm talking about reads this, but I seriously hope she gets caught while she's drinking tonight, and if not, I hope she has a horrid hang over this afternoon. She's underage, and she has a commitment to engage in later today. Men are human beings too. Women need to learn to treat them as such.
I know this really great guy who is so good to just everyone, but the girls he hangs out with totally take him for granted. The poor thing. Sadly, I'm one of these girls. I'm trying to get better about it, though. This guy really deserves a lot. I want to see if he and I would ever work out, but I don't want to hurt him. I know I don't have hard core feelings for him, but feelings can develop.
Why can't other girls see that men aren't necessarily in the relationship for just the sex, and if they are, they're not worth it! Most guys just want to know they're needed and loved as much as they love their sweetheart. Sometimes, I wish I could be his sweetheart... ugh. Life can be so catastrophic! I'll probably have to watch him go through multiple relationships and then get to comfort him when they end, but will never get my chance. I wonder how he thinks of me? Wish I could read his mind for a while...
Sorry this wasn't as hateful as you were expecting...
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ME?

So, people talking behind my back? Telling them I should see a shrink. I dont need one. I'm fine. And depressed? If I am, it's the depression part of grieving. Do people not even realize the severity of things that I've gone through? No one even knows me anymore. They all took a step back thinking I needed my space. They allowed me to fall--allowed me to fail.

UGH!!!

It's been one of those crappy days that just make me want to pull my hair out! It's so unfair, and I don't even want to elaborate on the stupidity of his actions! Gosh I hate life sometimes! I get so tense and angry everytime it's brought up... I don't want to tell him what's going through my mind! Right now, he doesn't deserve to know... He wouldn't like it anyways!
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